Monday, December 29, 2008

Bitch, you breakfest

best. song/video. ever.

I am sorry I haven't had a chance to update the blog in a couple of days
Last week was a total shit show, non-stop partying for 2 weeks now

Sing it, AUHH!!!

Monday, December 22, 2008

"My mother had a boyfriend named Pedro for like eight years....

He'd wake me up when he come home from managing a night club, wanting to joke around and play
I must have been around seven or so and it really creeped me out, especially the stench of Malibu rum coming from every pore of his skin.

You remind me of him."
-Shirt Tail
(Animal Collective forum)

Almost 5, can't wait to go home and take a nap
Work was pretty intense today and getting 2 hours of sleep last night did not help
Actually, scratch the nap part
I'm totally going out tonight

So, I kept nodding off at work
I was using my scarf as a blindfold
My co-worker was giving me pretty weird looks
I was even thinking about going to one of the empty offices to take a nap, but I drank a Mocha frap and was okay

Tunes that got me through the day

Hercules and Love Affair - Hercules Theme
(The only version I could find was this lame fan-made video...)

The Juan MacLean - Happy House

The Beatles - Yer Blues

Grandaddy - Nature Anthem

P.J. Olsson - The Whistle Song

Of Montreal - Wrath Pinned To The Mist and Other Games

The Smiths - This Charming Man

Sunday, December 21, 2008



Thursday, December 18, 2008

actually, I feel good now

The Supremes - Where Did Our Love Go?

Suicide - Cheree

Evie Sands - I Can't Let Go

Aaron Neville - Tell It Like It Is

p.s. I can't believe I took Solitaire for granted all these years
It is the greatest game ever created

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


2008 has been an amazing year, full of great adventures

and Surprises

Sure it's had its... uh... not-so-great moments
But it all turned out okay
Well, more than okay
2008 was off it's tits for sure

It is exciting (...albeit sad) watching the year slowly (...or perhaps rather quickly?) come to an end

But anywho

I have over-the-top expectations and I hope that I don't let myself down
In the end... it's really up to me, I suppose

Monday, December 15, 2008

Everything can be and will be...


Complicity sounds like a woman's name, yet compliance sounds like the name of a machine that washes, erases, destroys.

I see no reflection

there is no video

Sunday, December 14, 2008

but you know you can't hide

when the devil's your only friend

It's sad to fall asleep
It separates people
Even when you're sleeping together, you're all alone

I'm afraid of growing old

Tonight's tunes

Serge Gainsbourg - Couleur Cafe

Jacques Brel - Jef

Jacques Du Tronc - Fais Pas Ci fais Pas Ca

Chet Baker - Send In The Clowns (feat Van Morrison)

Chet Baker - My Funny Valentine (feat Stan Getz)

Nat King Cole - You're Looking At Me

John Coltrane - Every Time We Say Goodbye


and you're sick of all this repetition

When all of your advisers heave their plastic
At your feet to convince you of your pain
Trying to prove that your conclusions should be more drastic

And your father to your sister he explains
That you're tired of yourself and all of your creations

And you want somebody you don't have to speak to

Won't you come see me, Queen Jane?

Tonight's song
Grizzly Bear - Knife

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

A sailor has to masturbate until the ship lands,

A lot of things happen out on the open sea...

If one were to take the bible seriously one would go mad
But to take the bible seriously, one must be already mad

Ordinary morality is only for ordinary people.

Not too much.

I want to confess as best I can, but my heart is void
The void is a mirror
I see my face and feel loathing and horror
My indifference to men has shut me out
I live now in a world of ghosts, a prisoner in my dreams

Sometimes if you want to get rid of the gun, you have to pick the gun up.

You look at me like I'm the strangest wanderer you've ever seen
And I got so strange from going where you ain't never been

Tonight's tunes

Philip Glass - From Wichita Vortex Sutra

Franz Liszt - Liebestraum

Modest Petrovich - Mussorgsky

Jean Sibelius - Valse Triste

Franz Schubert - Die Unvollendete


Sunday, December 7, 2008

You look great...

when i'm high

I think I've decided that I only want to have one kid (...two, at the most)
I fear that I'll love one more than the other
And don't you tell me "that's not how it works!", because it totally is

I am so tired right now

I don't really have much to say tonight


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

There was once a wives tale that children originate as twins within the womb,

but throughout the pregnancy one of the twins devours it's sibling. The surviving twin is tortured with the guilt of having the "vanished twin" within them, the other twin's shadow haunting them for life.

So I went to the Deerhunter concert tonight... against my better judgment
Sucks I have to wake up at 6:45 tomorrow
Why am I updating this right now?

Oh right,
I wanted to post about this before I forgot

So, I'm at the concert and these 5 dudes and girls are next to me
They are SO hammered
I can hear them yelling/slurring their words
They were clearly on ecstasy or some shit, because their eyes were rolling to the back of their heads
They were being so annoying

Jesus christ
I needed a drink so bad

if you are going to do drugs, don't do them in public
Not only is there a chance of getting in trouble with the law, you are also annoying as all fuck to the concertgoers around you

DEERHUNTER was amazing
I missed the first song (Cryptograms... just my luck)
But... holy. shit.
They were amazing
Agoraphobia was extra noisy live
So loud
Ears hurt

A: What a pretty postcard
B: Why are you crying?
A: ...because i'd like to be both yellow animals at the same time
B: Always asking for the impossible
A: I'll take my drum and beat it

When we talked, I talked about me, you talked about you, when we should have talked about each other.

We'd often go to the movies
We'd shiver as the screen lit up
But more often, she and I would be disappointed
More often we'd be disappointed
The images flickered
Marilyn Monroe looked terribly old
It saddened us
It wasn't the film we had dreamed, the film we all carried in our hearts, the film we wanted to make...
and secretly wanted to live

Man can build his greatness on the nothingness that crushes him.

If I have been feeling worried or sad during the day, I have a habit of recalling scenes from childhood to calm me....
So it was this evening

Our crusade was such madness that only a real idealist could have thought it up.

Tonight's songs
The Beatles - I will

Pulp - Babies

Animal Collective - My Girls (Live at Coachella 2008)

Air - La Femme D'argent

Elvis Costello - (What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love, and Understanding


Saturday, November 29, 2008

Even the most miserable life is better than...

a sheltered existence in an organized society where everything is calculated and perfected.

I went to the lamest bar tonight
I think it was called Lizard's

Listen, I get it
You're a Frat bro
That's your personal lifestyle brand
That's cool
But why do you all have to wear button up Polo's with the sleeves rolled up?
I guess I missed the meeting at the Dave Matthews concert 5 years ago
(After that sweet round of Hacky Sack)

I felt so out of place at this bar
And I mean that in the best possible way ever

The music these people listen to
Holy bleeding Christ on the fucking cross
If I had a nickel for every time I heard an AC/DC tune tonight.... I'd have 3 dollars and 20 cents in my pocket

I think my friend Julia put it best...
"That place had a mixture of not okay people, tolerable people and a few cool people. It was so weird seeing all those people, some i hadn't seen for years"

No, but on the real
I had a pretty good time
I saw a lot of cool cats I had not seen in forever
So that was super neat
I just can't get over all the button-up Polo's with rolled-up-sleeves and the stupid whore who put her cigarette out on my favorite Marc Jacobs hoodie
Holy shit
If I hear another AC/DC song tonight, I swear I'm offing myself

The drive back was kind of scary
My ride was doing 90+ on I-10
What an asshole
But at least he got me home safe

Holy shit
I was watching Reservoir Dogs on the drive back home
Mr. Orange: [after killing Mr. Blonde] Hey you, what's your name?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Marvin.
Mr. Orange: Marvin what?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Marvin Nash.
Mr. Orange: Listen to me, Marvin, I'm a c...
Mr. Orange: ...listen to me, Marvin Nash, I'm a cop.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Yeah, I know.
Mr. Orange: You do?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Yeah, you're name's Freddy something.
Mr. Orange: Newendyke. Freddy Newendyke.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Frankie Ferchetti introduced us about five months ago.
Mr. Orange: Shit, I don't remember that at all.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: I do. Freddy... Freddy, how do I look?
Mr. Orange: [Freddy laughs] I don't know what to tell you, Marvin.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: That fuck! That sick fuck! That fucking bastard!
Mr. Orange: Marvin, I need you to hold on. There's cops waiting less than a block away.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: What the fuck are they waiting for? This fucking guy slashes my face, and he cuts my fucking ear off! I'm fucking deformed!
[pauses and calms down]
Mr. Orange: All right, now you heard them, we'll make the move when they get back, so don't pussy out on me now, Marvin. We're just gonna sit here and bleed until Joe Cabot sticks his fucking head through that door!

A: Ever notice there's the word "mask" in masculine? And also "ass"?
B: And in feminine?
A: Nothing.

We control our thoughts which mean nothing, and not our emotions which mean everything.

Time is like a circle which is endlessly described. The declining arc is the past. The inclining arc is the future.

Everything has been said, provided words do not change their meanings, and meanings their words.

Tonight's Tunes

Junior Boys - In The Morning (Hot Chip Remix)

Sebastien Tellier - Divine

Hot Chip - Ready For The Floor

The Knife - Heartbeats

Royal Trux - Witch's Tit