If one were to take the bible seriously one would go mad But to take the bible seriously, one must be already mad
Ordinary morality is only for ordinary people.
Smile.
Not too much.
I want to confess as best I can, but my heart is void
The void is a mirror
I see my face and feel loathing and horror
My indifference to men has shut me out
I live now in a world of ghosts, a prisoner in my dreams
Sometimes if you want to get rid of the gun, you have to pick the gun up.
You look at me like I'm the strangest wanderer you've ever seen
And I got so strange from going where you ain't never been
I think I've decided that I only want to have one kid (...two, at the most)
I fear that I'll love one more than the other
And don't you tell me "that's not how it works!", because it totally is
but throughout the pregnancy one of the twins devours it's sibling. The surviving twin is tortured with the guilt of having the "vanished twin" within them, the other twin's shadow haunting them for life.
So I went to the Deerhunter concert tonight... against my better judgment
Sucks I have to wake up at 6:45 tomorrow
Why am I updating this right now?
Oh right,
I wanted to post about this before I forgot
So, I'm at the concert and these 5 dudes and girls are next to me
They are SO hammered
I can hear them yelling/slurring their words
They were clearly on ecstasy or some shit, because their eyes were rolling to the back of their heads
They were being so annoying
Jesus christ
I needed a drink so bad
Kids...
if you are going to do drugs, don't do them in public
Not only is there a chance of getting in trouble with the law, you are also annoying as all fuck to the concertgoers around you
Anywho...
DEERHUNTER was amazing
I missed the first song (Cryptograms... just my luck)
But... holy. shit.
They were amazing
Agoraphobia was extra noisy live
So loud
Ears hurt
A: What a pretty postcard
B: Why are you crying?
A: ...because i'd like to be both yellow animals at the same time
B: Always asking for the impossible
A: I'll take my drum and beat it
When we talked, I talked about me, you talked about you, when we should have talked about each other.
We'd often go to the movies
We'd shiver as the screen lit up
But more often, she and I would be disappointed
More often we'd be disappointed
The images flickered
Marilyn Monroe looked terribly old
It saddened us
It wasn't the film we had dreamed, the film we all carried in our hearts, the film we wanted to make...
and secretly wanted to live
Man can build his greatness on the nothingness that crushes him.
If I have been feeling worried or sad during the day, I have a habit of recalling scenes from childhood to calm me....
So it was this evening
Our crusade was such madness that only a real idealist could have thought it up.
Tonight's songs
The Beatles - I will
Pulp - Babies
Animal Collective - My Girls (Live at Coachella 2008)
Air - La Femme D'argent
Elvis Costello - (What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love, and Understanding
a sheltered existence in an organized society where everything is calculated and perfected.
I went to the lamest bar tonight
I think it was called Lizard's
Listen, I get it
You're a Frat bro
That's your personal lifestyle brand
That's cool
But why do you all have to wear button up Polo's with the sleeves rolled up?
I guess I missed the meeting at the Dave Matthews concert 5 years ago
(After that sweet round of Hacky Sack)
I felt so out of place at this bar
And I mean that in the best possible way ever
The music these people listen to
Holy bleeding Christ on the fucking cross
If I had a nickel for every time I heard an AC/DC tune tonight.... I'd have 3 dollars and 20 cents in my pocket
I think my friend Julia put it best...
"That place had a mixture of not okay people, tolerable people and a few cool people. It was so weird seeing all those people, some i hadn't seen for years"
No, but on the real
I had a pretty good time
I saw a lot of cool cats I had not seen in forever
So that was super neat
I just can't get over all the button-up Polo's with rolled-up-sleeves and the stupid whore who put her cigarette out on my favorite Marc Jacobs hoodie
Holy shit
If I hear another AC/DC song tonight, I swear I'm offing myself
The drive back was kind of scary
My ride was doing 90+ on I-10
What an asshole
But at least he got me home safe
Holy shit
I was watching Reservoir Dogs on the drive back home
Mr. Orange: [after killing Mr. Blonde] Hey you, what's your name?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Marvin.
Mr. Orange: Marvin what?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Marvin Nash.
Mr. Orange: Listen to me, Marvin, I'm a c...
[pauses]
Mr. Orange: ...listen to me, Marvin Nash, I'm a cop.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Yeah, I know.
Mr. Orange: You do?
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Yeah, you're name's Freddy something.
Mr. Orange: Newendyke. Freddy Newendyke.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: Frankie Ferchetti introduced us about five months ago.
Mr. Orange: Shit, I don't remember that at all.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: I do. Freddy... Freddy, how do I look?
Mr. Orange: [Freddy laughs] I don't know what to tell you, Marvin.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: That fuck! That sick fuck! That fucking bastard!
Mr. Orange: Marvin, I need you to hold on. There's cops waiting less than a block away.
LAPD Officer Marvin Nash: What the fuck are they waiting for? This fucking guy slashes my face, and he cuts my fucking ear off! I'm fucking deformed!
Mr. Orange: [yells] FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! I'M FUCKIN' DYING HERE! I'M FUCKIN' DYING!
[pauses and calms down]
Mr. Orange: All right, now you heard them, we'll make the move when they get back, so don't pussy out on me now, Marvin. We're just gonna sit here and bleed until Joe Cabot sticks his fucking head through that door!
A: Ever notice there's the word "mask" in masculine? And also "ass"?
B: And in feminine?
A: Nothing.
We control our thoughts which mean nothing, and not our emotions which mean everything.
Time is like a circle which is endlessly described. The declining arc is the past. The inclining arc is the future.
Everything has been said, provided words do not change their meanings, and meanings their words.
